Since you asked...

I was just politely reminded by someone very special in my life that I've not posted in quite a while... Well, here's for you!

I just started working on a new website for myself... http://www.digimot.net. Visit if you wish, but don't expect much. I've not fully fleshed out what I want to be there.

It's great to finally see some color in the trees, though once they leaves turn, they seem to fall... Who knew?

I am SOOOO glad that today is Friday! I can't wait to see my kiddies again!

Well, that's it for now... I promise to post more soon...

What's "Fred'08" all about?

Ok, so you've obviously seen my nice banner ad for Fred'08.

I have read his platform (and you should, too) and I really think he's the man to vote for in the next election!

He makes sense. He speaks well. He's really well known, moreso even than Ronald Reagan!

(For those who don't recognize him, click here!)

Click on his banner, and really listen to what he says, and read what he stands for!

You'll see why he gets my vote this year!!!

And now, a word from our sponsor(s)...

Ok, so you all see the ad thingys I've got all around my page.





They're there for a reason...





You see, I get paid for each time someone clicks on one of them... And it would be nice to get a little extra...

I promise I'll post more, and more worth reading....


Just see my next post!

Things are much better now

Alright, I know that I scared a few people with my last post, but...



The BW and I had a long, hard, honest, loving conversation last night. It was probably one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I was glad I did. A ton of feelings that I just, as I am wont to do, "stuffed" and never mentioned, I expressed, and with that a whole bunch of emotion was released on all sides. This is what really made it probably the best talk of our lives.

I hope I can continue down this path with my BW. I love her with all I think I could possibly love a human being. It's because of this, that I know we're destined to last.

Thank you, all who prayed for me.

What in the world...

Boy, talk about not having a good day coming home.

After a long and busy day at work, I come home... And let's just say that things were not as I expected them.

I'm not going to get into what I was expecting, because that's not important. But this was the first time I said what I felt about something like this to my BW (Beloved Wife, for those who do not know the lingo.)

Anyway, now I have to temper this with the fact that the family had 2-3 appointments to go to today, and many were stressful on them all, but I had these expectations, (darn you, expectations!) and they just didn't happen.

So, after being just overwhelmed with too much attention all at once, and things going on...I went into the closet to cool down, and not react out of pure emotion. I stated my grievance to my BW, and playfully added to the mix a bit of annoyance at our lovely pooch, Calvin. Well, I got my head chewed off for "blaming" him for anything. Not a good showing for actually discussing what was bothering me right away, even after quelling the emotions tied with it.

So, all this to say, what the H-E-double-hockey-sticks did I bother saying anything? I say that I don't want to bring up things because I think I know what'll happen, and then I'm told not to, because I really don't. SO I do just that, and it turns out pretty much as I expected.

Ok, I'm a bit far-reaching there. I didn't know exactly what to expect, but I end up feeling like the bad guy for doing what I thought was right...

Life just sucks that way most of the time.

So suffice it to say, I'm more confused than ever about how to deal with this stupid thing called life... God, help me, but I think I'm going nuts!!!

Talk about getting gun shy! And so, do I do it again? What's the flippin' point?

Hey, what do you know!

I just realized/remembered, I can blog from my e-mail address! How cool is that?

 

So this just a test, of sorts, making sure I can do this, and do it properly.

 

So…. Hi! Howya doin’?

 

 

IRAQ - It's not about oil!!!

I can prove the above statement...

To do so, I ask this question: If America is the kind of nation that would go to war over oil, why haven't we invaded Canada?

The vast majority of oil imported by the U. S. is from Canada, a country of 10 million people or so, with very little military to speak of. We could invade them easily, right? So why bother with the difficult fight in Iraq for oil if Canada is sitting just to our north, ripe for the pickings?

And if it's all about oil, why are we not drilling for oil in our own country? Why not allow it in ANWR and the Gulf of Mexico? Then we wouldn't have to fight in Iraq?

So maybe it's about something other than oil...

Maybe it's really about freedom, like the President says!

This is not about me, but it's my responsibility...

Now, hon. I know you're going to read this, and think that you made me feel guilty or something. While I was listening to you this morning, your despair, I felt my heart break. But I also started to understand what it meant to be the head of the family. What the responsibility of that is, and that it means if something is going wrong, it's me who's ultimately responsible.

Yes, that means if you find yourself unable to do something around the house, it's ultimately me who's responsible, because I should be making the decisions to help you along that path. If we have problems disciplining our kids, it's my concern, because it means I've not been taking leadership in talking about how we do it, there's no plan.

I don't know I'm going to do it, and I probably can't do it alone, but I will find a way to be the husband, father, and man I'm supposed to be.

I know that God supports me in this, but that the Adversary will try hard to keep me from this, as he knows that my kids, as well as everyone else's kids, are the next generation that could be fighting his reign on this planet.

Please pray for my family as we learn the roles we need to learn.



"GOD,
I know that I'm trying to take the right path. But I also know that the enemy of my soul and my family and Your Kingdom doesn't want this to happen. Please help me to resist temptation, and to work for what is right, despite how frustrating things get. Give me courage, and patience, and wisdom, to move beyond this into what you have predestined me to be.

Amen."

Sometimes I think I'm just a big failure...

Today has not been a good day.

It started off with me getting only 2 hours of sleep. But then after that, I found out I'm a disappointment to my wife, and probably also one to my kids.

The problem is, I know it. I suck, royally. I can't get this thing called "life" right, it seems. If something is going good, I always find a way to make it bad. And I hate it that I can do nothing about the situation. Or at least that's the way I feel.

Thing is, I get comfortable, I make mistakes. And the more comfortable I am, the bigger the mistakes tend to be. I really feel like an idiot when I forget important dates, and disappoint my wife. Or when I could simply do what I know needs to be done, but I don't do it, because I'm lazy, or preoccupied, or whatever. It's like I stop thinking, and just let myself forget all that I've done to get me to where I was.

Right now, I suppose you could say that I hate myself, at least somewhat.

I wish I could be someone else, because I don't really like who I am now. GOD! I need to be done with this life and move on to something where I can't screw it all up...

Maybe this is just the lack of sleep talking, but right now, I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up. Maybe it'd be better for everyone involved if it ended like that.

So, I guess, I really asking anyone and everyone who reads this to pray for me. Heap upon me your prayers, and help me to recognize an answer, because I honestly don't know if I can keep praying. I'm apparently not asking for the right things.

GOD, please, PLEASE! I'm sick of who I am! I'm worthless, and I have no idea what you could possibly see as worthy in me! I've become a useless thing, taking up space even in my own life! I've almost given up on fighting, because fighting only leaves me hurt... I'm sick, and I'm broken, and I'm wounded, and I'm scared... I'm finished. Make me, mold me, form me, break me down and build me up again!

Sound words about "Scientific concensus"

I think it is quite ludicrous that there has been so much on-going debate on "Global Warming." What really gets my dander up is this notion that "scientific concensus" equals proof that such a thing actually exists.

In an article I found on Financial Times (via a link from Slashdot), Czech Republic President Vaclav Klaus openly declares his frustration with a scientific community whose primary purpose is no longer to seek truth, but is to enact global social change through not hard data, but "scientific concensus" based on woefully inadequate sources. I urge you to read his piece, as I am afraid I'll do it no justice. Suffice it to say, that I whole-heartedly agree with it, and hope someone gets the cohones to take the scientific community to task and ask for truly hard evidence, rather than near-religious faith in quite sketchy speculation based on data which they have twisted and bent to fit their own socio-political agenda; state what their political affiliation is and demand that we know what might be their motivation for such religious fervor about something that has no substantial proof.

Link: Financial Times Article by Vaclav Klaus

Great quotes

I have to thank my mother for this great set of Quotes from great minds about the "wonders" of Government....

Remember these as the elections draw nearer, and see what you're doing...

"If you don't read the newspaper, you are uninformed; if you do read the newspaper you are misinformed."
- Mark Twain


"Suppose you were an idiot. And suppose you were a member of Congress....
But then I repeat myself."
- Mark Twain


"I contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the handle."
-Winston Churchill


"A government which robs Peter to pay Paul can always depend on the support of Paul."
- George Bernard Shaw


"A liberal is someone who feels a great debt to his fellow man ....which debt he proposes to pay off with your money."
- G Gordon Liddy


"Democracy must be something more than two wolves and a sheep voting on what to have for dinner."
- James Bovard, Civil Libertarian (1994)


"Foreign aid might be defined as a transfer of money from poor people in rich countries to rich people in poor countries."
- Douglas Casey, Classmate of Bill Clinton at Georgetown University


"Giving money and power to government is like giving whiskey and car keys to teenage boys. "
- P.J. O'Rourke, Civil Libertarian


"Government is the great fiction, through which everybody endeavors to live at the expense of everybody else."
- Frederic Bastiat, French Economist (1801-1850)


"Government's view of the economy could be summed up in a few short phrases: If it moves, tax it. If it keeps moving, regulate it. And if it s tops moving, subsidize it."
- Ronald Reagan (1986)


"I don't make jokes. I just watch the government and report the facts."
- Will Rogers


"If you think health care is expensive now, wait until you see what it costs when it's free!"
- P.J. O'Rourke



"In general, the art of government consists of taking as much money as possible from one party of the citizens to give to the other."
- Voltaire (1764)


"Just because you do not take an interest in politics doesn't mean politics won't take an interest in you!"
- Pericles (430 B.C.)


"No man's life, liberty, or property is safe while the legislature is in session."
- Mark Twain (1866)


"Talk is cheap...except when Congress does it."
- Unknown


"The government is like a baby's alimentary canal, with a happy appetite at one end and no responsibility at the other."
- Ronald Reagan


"The inherent vice of capitalism is the unequal sharing of the blessings. The inherent blessing of socialism is the equal sharing of misery."
- Winston Churchill


"The only difference between a tax man and a taxidermist is that the taxidermist leaves the skin."
- Mark Twain


"The ultimate result of shielding men from the effects of folly is to fill the world with fools."
- Herbert Spencer, English Philosopher (1820-1903)


"There is no distinctly Native American criminal class...save Congress."
- Mark Twain


"What this country needs are more unemployed politicians."
- Edward Langley, Artist (1928 - 1995)



"A government big enough to give you everything you want, is strong enough to take everything you have."
- Thomas Jefferson

Spring is in the air...

Just had my first really nice riverside walk...

And I love kissing my wife!!!!!!!

And I geek out...

Ok, so I'm really psyched about this. One of my =favorite= MUDs around is Imperian by Iron Realms. For those who don't know what a MUD is, it's an online game where many people play it together... Right up my alley, for those who *do* know me, right? Anyway, they've just announced their first MMORPG (Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game) called Earth Eternal. And if they do this game half as good as their others, it's going to be the best one out there!

There. I'm excited!

Be back soon!

(P.S. Honey, I love you!)

Yay! My first post of 2007!

Happy New Year!

Well if you've seen my wife's recent blog post, you'll know that she is planning on running a half-marathon this year... Well, I'd like to help her in that, and the only way I know how to do that is to train right along with her...

:O

You guessed it, good ol' sedentary me is going to train for a race... What in the world has gotten into me, you ask? Many things... I'm sick of doing things the same way over and over again, knowing that nothing will change unless I start to make one. Ok, I take that back... I started praying more often after a sermon I heard on New Year's Eve Day, and I believe that's what has spurred this change in a great many things in my life... So, thank you, God, for listening... :)

Anyway, so now, what am I going to do? I guess I'll just have to walk, and do whatever else I can do so that I can do this crazy thing.... All to support the most wonderful wife a man could have. You're worth it, Angel Baby!

What an answer!

OK, how's this for an answer?

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

But, Lord, ‘tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh trump of the angel! Oh voice of the Lord!
Blessèd hope, blessèd rest of my soul!

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

What am I supposed to learn?

Today is perhaps the crappiest day I've had, apart from the day my dad died.

As I was on the way to take my daughter to school, we hit a patch of ice, and slammed, pretty hard, into the curb...

Long story short, a trip to Tires Plus gave us the damage, two bad wheel bearings, two bent wheels, and an alignment needed at the least. Almost $900 to fix it... Guess we're not driving anywhere real soon.

So we limped home, safely. No one got hurt, but...

Still, we have the night together, and we have other ways of getting where we need to go.

But in all of this, I know that God will make it work out for the best for us and our kids. I don't know how it'll happen, but I wait for it.

I can't feel my knees!

Lord, have mercy!

It'll be dropping to probably below zero degrees tonight, or maybe even below! I just walked home with the wind in my face.... BRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

The things I do to get around cheaply in this state. Half-a-mile walk in sub-zero wind chills... I'm stupid, or brave, or both... (Probably the latter!)

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My old band mate is tempting me with some recording equipment... Once I can afford to build my own PC, then maybe I can afford the recording gear...

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I'm so waiting for the "Heroes" episode I missed because apparently the cable in our condo doesn't like cold weather. Stupid coaxial cable...

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I'm home, I warm, my kids are beautiful, even when sleeping, and my wife loves me.

Life is good!


(P.S. I was so happy seeing you doing yoga when I got home. I hope you saw my smile. I'm proud that you did it on your own, under your own initiative. See, you don't need a gym to do yourself good... ;) )

I'm gonna do it!

Thank God for decent Jury Clerks!

I called her this morning, and explained why I missed my jury selection, and she was so understanding! I was so happy! My next date... well I guess I shouldn't post that here, so no biggie. But I'm not really in trouble. *YAY*

I'm getting a new schedule come March, and I thought it'd be better, and it is, but not as good as I thought. I'll be working from 10:30am t0 7:30 pm M-F! The only problem is with bussing. Even that early, I'll get home around 9pm... >:( But, if I work just a half hour of OT each day, it'll only be 20 minutes to wait for the bus... Go figure...

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I heard something last night on a repeat of the Bob Davis show on one of the local Talk Radio stations that I like to listen to when I can. It kind of intrigued me. There was a study that people with more money were happier than people with little money. But Bob asked the question: "Is it that money buys happiness, or that happy people just draw money to them?"

That really got me intrigued. Could my outlook on life be causing me to fail constantly? Can I really put that much faith in the Biblical adage, "As a man thinks, so is he"? Could God mean that litterally?

I think I'm going to put that idea to the test. I'm going to honestly try to be thankful for everything that happens to me; to see the good in all things. I'm going to count how God has blessed me every day. I'm going to praise Him for the good in my life, and stop dwelling on the bad. I'm going to try to keep my mind on "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable...anything...excellent or praiseworthy". I'm going to see if God will bless me for this contentment. Not to test Him, because I know He's able, but to test me, and see if good things come to me.

Hey, it's worth a try...

(P.S. Thank you for being such a great mom to my kids, my darling wife! You are the reason we have such good kids, my love!)

The panic of the masses

...Why does everybody seem to think it's the end of the world when something bad happens to them, and it's really funny when something bad happens to someone else? Wouldn't the world be a better place if those things were reversed?

Think about it...

Jury Duty

...If it's so blamed important, why don't they do something to remind you, like the library does when you have a book in... A simple automated call couldn't hurt, could it?