Monday, October 1, 2007

What in the world...

Boy, talk about not having a good day coming home.

After a long and busy day at work, I come home... And let's just say that things were not as I expected them.

I'm not going to get into what I was expecting, because that's not important. But this was the first time I said what I felt about something like this to my BW (Beloved Wife, for those who do not know the lingo.)

Anyway, now I have to temper this with the fact that the family had 2-3 appointments to go to today, and many were stressful on them all, but I had these expectations, (darn you, expectations!) and they just didn't happen.

So, after being just overwhelmed with too much attention all at once, and things going on...I went into the closet to cool down, and not react out of pure emotion. I stated my grievance to my BW, and playfully added to the mix a bit of annoyance at our lovely pooch, Calvin. Well, I got my head chewed off for "blaming" him for anything. Not a good showing for actually discussing what was bothering me right away, even after quelling the emotions tied with it.

So, all this to say, what the H-E-double-hockey-sticks did I bother saying anything? I say that I don't want to bring up things because I think I know what'll happen, and then I'm told not to, because I really don't. SO I do just that, and it turns out pretty much as I expected.

Ok, I'm a bit far-reaching there. I didn't know exactly what to expect, but I end up feeling like the bad guy for doing what I thought was right...

Life just sucks that way most of the time.

So suffice it to say, I'm more confused than ever about how to deal with this stupid thing called life... God, help me, but I think I'm going nuts!!!

Talk about getting gun shy! And so, do I do it again? What's the flippin' point?

1 comment:

  1. ((((((((((ERIC)))))))))) Life sure isnt easy, is it? I am so sorry that you are having a rough time right now. But dont give up on communication. Maybe you need to preface your feelings with "Do you want to know what I think, or should I just leave for a while?" Sometimes getting away from the tension after letting your spouse know that there is something that is bothering you is the best thing so both can have a chance to think about what is going on.

    Now you dont have to take that advice, but there it is. All I know is that communication is VERY important and I do hope that both you and your BW will hold that as an upmost important thing in your marriage.

    I love you Eric, and I will pray for you

    Love
    Mom

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