A Long Time

...That's how long it's taking me to learn life's little lessons. I talk a great talk, but when I try to walk it, I stumble like I did when I was 10 months old. I have all these grandiose ideas, but none of them ever come to fruition. I wish there were a "magic" little something that I could do or take that would allow me to focus, be responsible, and do what I say, and say what I do.

What I really need is prayer.

I'm alone in my inner struggles without God. I need Him to grant me wisdom and the ability to deny myself. I need to overcome this pervasive disease called life, and live the true life He has for me. But I keep going back to the "easy" path I've been following so long, though I know it's broke. I believe I feel comfort knowing what I'm dealing, rather than wanting to go into something new, that will be hard, but will be infinitely more beneficial.

Dear Lord,
I pray that I will have a change in attitude, and do the right thing, for myself, and my family. I know that the life I'm now living is not the life you want for me. Give me the courage and strength to take a bold new step and do what I know I'm meant to do. Grant me wisdom and the resolve to put the wise thoughts into action.

In Christ's name,
AMEN!

The Hardest Thing

Man!

Sometimes life tries its best to get you down. It's doing it's darnedest to do that just now. We are sadly faced with having to put our daughter into public school next year. Mainly because we have...I take that back. Mainly because I have not been taking the required care of our finances, we are unable to make ends meet without Kim working.

It, of course, didn't happen overnight. It's been a pattern of inaction over a few years. So, tonight, after our Condo Owners Association meeting, we will talk and pray about what to do until then. If you read this, and fear God, lift us up in prayer. He is able to do immesurably more than we could even dream, but sometimes, that means we have to do something we don't want to do, in order to achieve what he wants for us.

Dear Father,

I come before you broken to the soul, a hollow pit in my stomach. I cry out to you! Hear me! I've lived too long without your counsel, and I now know what I have to show for it. Give me peace, grace, and surety that what Kim and I decide tonight is in your will. Give me the peace you gave me that I was not going to die after my accident. Help me to know your mercy and grace. Help me to love your correction, so that I may walk with you always.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen

The Best Laid Plans

Well, unfortunately, because of some unexpected goings on, Kim and I were unable to go dancing on Saturday night. But such is life, eh? Life has it's own way of disrupting all of our plans, but it is up to us to make the best of them.

So instead of dancing, the whole family went to see "Dreamer", a great movie starring Kurt Russell (my vaforite actor) and Dakota Fanning. That was such a Daddy/Daughter film. I caught myself crying at least five times during that film. It was the best story I've seen in a long time. I'd like to read the true storry off which it was based. A family on the verge of bankruptcy, a lame horse, and a dream that works out. Going from nothing to winning $14 million in the Breeders' Cup? That was utterly amazing. It's a movie our family will own.

I urge you all to see it if you can!

It's Just Makes Me Feel Like Dancing!

Well, the anniversary dinner my wife and I had last night at the The Olive Garden was PERFECT! It was so very romantic, and we talked like we haven't in a long time! It's amazing what a difference a year makes! And my mother and her husband were so wonderful taking our two lovely children for the night. I am so in love with her, and it feels the same as it did when I married her four years ago. (Not five, and you know who you are who didn't remember.) But tonight is a whole different story!

WE'RE GOING DANCIN'!!!

I'll tell you about it when I can!

Anniversaries

It's amazing that we've just had our 4th Wedding Aniversary yesterday. It was no huge deal, as it was the middle of the week. But we are going to make the best of the next few days. Diner tonight at our favorite date restaurant, and dancing to-morrow night at a new club neither of us has been to.

The funniest thing about this year was that everyone thought it was our 5th year. It must be a big year, because everyone is getting it wrong. It feels like a much bigger year than the last three for some reason. Almost like it's a milestone, rather than the way point that 5 years sounds like.

I for one really look forward to this new year. Today is day 2 of our fifth year together, Kim, Faith, Josiah, and I. (Well, only two and a half years for Joe-Man.)

Well, here's to another year, praying that it is much better than this last year.

In Christ!

A New Start?

Hello! Well, today is going to be a good day, it seems. I have the famous 2nd interview for a new position within my company. Now this will be the first move I've made since coming here, but it is definately in the direction I want to go. This will be a great move for me, with the possibilty of more income, and a chance to move up faster in the company.

Wish me luck!


UPDATE:

Well, the interview went fine, but was a bit difficult to read. We'll see what happens in the next few days!