...That's how long it's taking me to learn life's little lessons. I talk a great talk, but when I try to walk it, I stumble like I did when I was 10 months old. I have all these grandiose ideas, but none of them ever come to fruition. I wish there were a "magic" little something that I could do or take that would allow me to focus, be responsible, and do what I say, and say what I do.
What I really need is prayer.
I'm alone in my inner struggles without God. I need Him to grant me wisdom and the ability to deny myself. I need to overcome this pervasive disease called life, and live the true life He has for me. But I keep going back to the "easy" path I've been following so long, though I know it's broke. I believe I feel comfort knowing what I'm dealing, rather than wanting to go into something new, that will be hard, but will be infinitely more beneficial.
Dear Lord,
I pray that I will have a change in attitude, and do the right thing, for myself, and my family. I know that the life I'm now living is not the life you want for me. Give me the courage and strength to take a bold new step and do what I know I'm meant to do. Grant me wisdom and the resolve to put the wise thoughts into action.
In Christ's name,
AMEN!
I have in my hands two boxes which God gave me to hold. He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black, and all your joys in the gold."
ReplyDeleteI heeded His words, and in the two boxes both my joys and sorrows I stored. But though the gold became heavier each day, the black was as light as before.
With curiosity, I opened the black...I wanted to find out why and I saw, in the base of the box, a hole which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God, and mused aloud, "I wonder where my sorrows could be." He smiled a gentle smile at me. "My child, they're all here with me."
I asked, "God, why give me the boxes, why the gold, and the black with the hole?"
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, the black is for you to let go."
Baby, the thing I'm MOST thankful for, being married to you, is that you are willing to let God mold you. That is happening before my eyes!! Don't let your sorrows hold you down. Find that black box and see that there really IS a hole in the bottom...for God is holding all your sorrows and worries. And He won't leave that gold box empty...not now; not ever.
Loving you like never before,
The Wife :)